I feel so bad and alone
We had a mass for Saint Stanislaus Kostka today. As usual, as the vice-president of my class, I stayed at the back of the line. It’s really kinda embarrassing being the smallest person (almost not anymore) and you’re at the back of the line, when the line is from smallest to tallest.
Anyway, when we got to our place, I was the only one without a seat so I just got my own at the reserves of stacks of chairs.
The mass was quiet and boring. I was paying attention but later on, my mind moved on to other stuff, day-dreaming.
After mass, I had to walk alone, I really feel like an outcast. You know, not like all the others, with a companion with them while walking back to the classroom, I have none. I feel that I’m an outcast.
Other subjects just passed on…
During Science time, just a few minutes after we started our discussion, the bell rang for the noise barrage and walk-out protest for President Estrada’s resignation. Everybody started walking out of the classroom into the covered courts. You were given a choice, to stay or not to stay. Teachers were not staying, they really want ERAP out. Almost everyone went to the covered courts to make noise for Erap to step down from the presidency.
I felt so alone, being the only ones, with Jess and Mon left behind since we were either neutral or pro-Erap.
I feel like an outcast. We had to leave the classroom and stay outside because Mr. San Pedro, our prefect said so. He is in charge so he doesn’t want any robbery of some sort happening around since the 1st-year Wing was really deserted. I just had a lousy time talking with Mon and Jess. I feel so alone, especially when they talk about stuff which I can’t join in it because I know nothing about it…
When they came back, I was really stabbed with what they said…
“Yung mga hindi sumama, mga bano, duwag!”
At home I just wanted to pour my emotions out. I just couldn’t in that suffocating atmosphere in school.
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