The social worker arrived today with our foster baby, Hailey. Agh, I’ve never experienced taking care of a baby full-time so I feel excited right now. I just got off from my parents’ room playing with her.

My mom was briefed on the baby. I was reading the affidavit of transfer or something which has the story on her biological mother a while ago. Her mother was an education major college student from Bicol. Apparently, she unintentionally got herself pregnant after getting drunk for the first time with one of her friends’ friend. The father didn’t want the responsibility (asshole) and she didn’t have the face to tell her family back in the province about her condition. So she ended up at an institution that takes care of women like her. She set Hailey up for adoption hoping that a better family can take care of her.

I was carrying Hailley a while ago and I was looking at her eyes. Although she doesn’t cry that much at all, her eyes were obviously tearing. Bakat sa pisngi n’ya ang daloy ng luha. I don’t know why, but it absolutely crushed me seeing her ‘crying’ silently. It may be because of some other ‘biological reasons’ like, she’s hungry or whatever. I’m still at loss for words. How in God’s name can you ‘abandon’ your child forever for somebody else to adopt?!

I was imagining how Hailey will feel or think ten or so more years from now. How would she feel knowing that her real mother gave her away?

I can’t think straight right now. Even though after three months, Hailey will be living a very comfortable life with her new parents in Belgium, I still feel so crushed for her. I can’t explain it. She’s so young…

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