And I thought they’d be proud of me
SATURDAY. I had a very bad headache last Saturday. I tried to sleep it off in the afternoon before the Easter Vigil mass but it only got worse. At mass that night, it didn’t help that the lady beside me wore this awful perfume which nauseated me all the more. And that was another two-hour mass. I had to excuse myself to vomit outside the church. I hate headaches.
SUNDAY. I started playing Breath of Fire IV in PlayStation. It’s been a while. I almost finished the game two years ago but I didn’t. And I’ve forgotten why I didn’t.
MONDAY. Started biking again. I hope I can get myself to do this as an early morning habit. I just noticed, there are so many stray chickens in our place.
In the afternoon, I went to school for the meeting among the volunteers for the Mass Comm graduation. The heat that afternoon was severe. It was apparently declared as the hottest day of the year yet. It was such a torture commuting home, walking under the sun like that.
TUESDAY. I had my last exam in the morning, ECON 11. I have a 2.25 standing which is really bad. I hope my final exam grade can push my grade even to just a 2.0.
I proceeded to my grade school for the preschool graduation of one of my cousins, Raphael. I dislike visiting my grade school. Really. I don’t know why but, it just brings back unhappy feelings. My grade school wasn’t bad at all, but… I don’t know.
I don’t really like bumping into my grade school teachers. I didn’t really dislike them. In fact, I was a teacher’s pet, if you can say that. But see, I’ve changed a lot — for the better, I would like to think. And every time I bump into them, they remind me of all the stupid stuff I did back then. They remind me of things I’ve long forgotten, and don’t wish to remember, like that “bitter” academic rivalry I had with a friend. And probably because all my grade school peers have gotten each other into relationships, they keep bothering me by acting all disappointed that I don’t have a girlfriend yet. Then, every time I tell them that I am a film student, I always get this disappointed cringe from them. Paano daw ako yayaman in that profession. I was my grade school batch’s valedictorian, see. They said they expected me to become a money-making businessman or a lawyer, at least. Ugh. I am beginning to really hate them for all these discouragements I’ve been getting. Well at least it motivates me to do my best to succeed and prove them wrong.
Anyway, it was Raphael’s preschool graduation, that’s why I was there. I never visited my grade school if not for my brother or my cousin’s graduations — even though the school is just a couple of blocks away from our house.
We went to Friday’s for lunch after the graduation. I was so stuffed that I didn’t even have to eat breakfast this morning (the morning after). I’m still full.

We went to SM afterwards. I asked Mama to buy me a bike helmet. Those damn jeepney groups are asking for a fare increase again. The moment the minimum fare jumps to 8.50, I’m going to start taking my bike to school. Ayos lang sa ‘kin kung matino naman silang magmaneho, eh hindi. There are other reasons why I don’t think they deserve a fare hike, pero saka na lang ako magpopost ng entry tungkol do’n.

saan ka bang grade school galing? ateneo din?
i can totally relate. kahit nga dumaan eh ayoko. sobrang bad din kasi ng memories ko doon. haha. sometimes i feel like i don’t really owe them anything anyway. and i really hate seeing old grade school classmates too.
btw, galing pala akong SHSQC. yup, kung saan karamihan ng mga tao ay concerned sa mga mabababaw na bagay, kung saan kasing-natural na ng paghinga ang pago-outcast, kung saan bawat mali mo ay pinapansin, kung saan pera at estado sa buhay ang pinakamahalaga, at kung saan ang pagkakaibigan ay kasing babaw ng mga utak nila.
Pogi mo pala